Now i remember why i end up being the way i am, and truly only expressing my self through things instead of through really me, i remembered why i hate people.
Because I can't ever REALLY get mad and when i think i am i just feel sad and not mad.
I always apologize when i shouldn't and i don't want to but i do.
People are hypocriteses and the only remebr the facts when its them in the electric chair.
Me i remember all the time and it sucks cause it means i don't bitch at people even though i want to.
But it also means i hold grudges, i hold everything to heart.
And it stays there.
i know i shouldn't but i do
Thats the way i feel
People think its hard being popular, having people who would fight others for you, being called pretty all the time, and yet some people hating you.
But is it really that hard when you have bunches of people who love you.
And yet your depressed cause you care about the opinions of those who hate you when the rest love and adore you.
How do you think the people feel who don't have hate or love
Who are alone
Who have to be dead to be seen
Or hurt
Or tired of it all
You say your depressed
you say you don't know how it is to be me
Well you don't know how it is to be me
To feel dead inside and look at all the people who aren't and want an crave what they have
What your afraid you'll never have
Alone
Forgotten
Not loved
Scared
Now tell me who has it better
The Scared or the Forgetting Great
TELL ME! WHO HAS IT BETTER! THE GIRL WHOS LOVED BY ALL HER FRIENDS OR THE GIRL WHOS WANTS TO DIE BUT IS SCARED OF DEATH AS MUCH AS LIVING GOD DAMN IT TELL ME!!!
you might want acceptance
but all i want is hope, love, and a friend
instead of this stupid blog
i want somebody to talk to to trust who loves me or cares about me
cause i don't have a real friend who does and my family doesn't seem like they do
And God...
has more important people to take care about rather then the pathetic suicidal chick

Im done.